Re-Sparking....

....again. You would think that it would be easier to just keep "the Spark" alive instead of letting it burn out, yes? And yet, it seems i haven't learned this yet. I am thinking that perhaps i should just set my self on fire each morning so this won't happen again.

For those of you who don't know what "Spark" is, it is this: an AMAZING website to help you get a 'spark' to get healthy and to lose weight. There are boards to meet others who are like you, there is a place to log your food, a place to log your exercise, a place to blog, graphs/tracking/tickers for your weight and a place to meet others who are on the same journey that you're on. There are SIMPLE EASY plans to follow. There is even a recipe site attached to Spark with a gazillion recipes! Every think you need to get healthy and fit is right there.

The very best thing about Spark?

It's TOTALLY FREE!

FREE, FREE, FREE, FREEEEE!

All of it....okay, if you want to buy The Spark Book, it'll cost you a little. To buy the Boot Camp video costs a little, too. But honestly, The Spark website is amazing.

If you want to check it out yourself, you can click HERE

Okay, off my Spark soapbox!

It is scary to look back and to see how long i've been talking about getting healthy. I seem to have wasted a lot of time talking, planning, thinking, talking some more instead of just following the suggestions of Spark and picking three small goals and starting from there. I must think that i am a professional Sparking or something! If i would just FOLLOW the plan that is here; that's all i have to do. It's already all done for me. It's already proven to work. Instead, i have "planned" my own way.....which has lead me back to the same exact starting point each and every time. It's almost like Ground Hog Day for me!

One day at a time.

One hour at a time.

One moment at a time.

One second at a time.

It is apparent to me that i need more help with getting on the bandwagon, so i've found a therapist. I have to figure out what in the heck is going on. One thing is for sure, though: i am following The Spark plan. I have picked out my three mini-goals to start with. I am making my motivation sheet. I am going to blog. And i am going to drink the water. I am to the point where i don't give a flip how long it takes me, i am going to get healthy and lose this weight....i am rock bottom and there is no where to go but up from where i am.

Rock bottom is not a good place to be. It is like a pit of despair that you can't seem to get out of or shake off. It is a sad, rotten place to be. I've been here for a bit now, and if i don't get out soon, i'm worried at what i would do to get healthy.

Yeah, it sucks that much. :o/

Even the sight of Spring has not helped me much. Spring is the time of re-birth and new beginnings, right? I have to get help with this. I have to...

Wish me good vibes, my friends....please.