Friday.

So much to do, and i'm afraid that i am not keeping up very well. I feel like a disorganized mess lately; what is that saying? If you fail to plan then get ready to fail? Yes, that's how i feel today. I sat down to make a list, and even THAT became a bit much to deal with. Looking at the list makes all that i need to do seem all that more overwhelming. I may need to change my blog name to "This Little Piggy Complains...." I do think, however, that i know how a hamster on a wheel feels....

Just Random....

....thoughts. I've been on a mini-vacation with my little tot to see my sister and her three children. While a fantastic time, it's a tiring time as there are four children and only 2 adults. The odds are not in our favor! The ages of the four are 12, 11, 8, and 5. Those ages are so much fun and yet, those ages are also the ages to drive mothers to drink.

I have had a headache the past few days that just won't go away. It is one of those constant kind of headaches that just won't be tamed with aspirin. I would love nothing better to sleep, alone in my comfy bed, but that's just not in the cards for this Mommy. I am willing to bed that this headache is due to my cutting down on the caffeine by not drinking so much Diet Coke. It's time to let go of that vice....it has truly gotten out of hand. Why drink diet drinks when i can drink water? I've been asking myself that the past few days and my answers are getting bitchier; i'm afraid that i also have huge (and i mean MAJOR HUGE) issues with sugar. I'm going to research some stuff, but i truly think that sugar is something that i need to pay attention to and pay attention to N.O.W.

sigh.

I often feel that i'm a huge failure at taking care of this body of mine that God has given me. I put junk into it as food and expect to feel good and lose weight. If you put junk into your body, shouldn't you expect your body to act like junk? That's not scientific stuff, yes? If i put in bad fuel, then that's what my body has to work with. I have this nagging, nagging thought that i truly need to go plant based and stay away from the red meat. I know how to eat this way. I know how much better i feel when i eat this way.

More sighing.

I came across a blogger that talks about sugar. She is reading a book called "Overcoming Sugar Addiction: How I Kicked My Sugar Habit..." by Karly Randolph Pitman. As i read what this blogger wrote about an incident with cupcakes, i could see myself. I could see me doing the exact same thing. I've ordered this book. While excited about this book, i'm nauseated. I almost don't want to know what this book has to say. Yep, that's a great way to deal with things, isn't it?

More thoughts....

We stayed at Reynolds Plantation at the Ritz Carlton and walking was part of this vacation. It is a beautiful place with lots of things/activities to do. The walking was actually relaxing and dare i say it, fun. I had no problem keeping up with the kids, but by the end of the night, i was so ready to park my tail in bed. My weight actually went down while i was there; i ate like my 118 pound sister does and it was a good learning experience. While my sister does love good food, she doesn't use it as a reward like i do. She is satisfied with sharing a meal and a dessert and will actually leave food on her plate. Apparently, the stories that my mother told us of all of the starving children in the world to get us to clean our plates only bothered me. Claudine reminds me so much of my mother....her features, her manners and the way she speaks are like catching a glimpse of my mother. Those glimpses make me miss our Mom that much more, but are comforting to see in my sister. The older we get, the more thankful i am for her...

There is a pile of laundry to do, things to catch up on, and some plans to make as this week is Spring Break for the tot. Off to do what i need to do...