Run....

No, i'm not running. It's hard to imagine me right now running at 205.3 lbs. In fact, it's hard to imagine me doing anything where i don't feel like i'm moving my mass around with lots off effort. Summer does that to you, you know. No, it's something even more unimaginable. And it's all started with a book. Not just any book, mind you, but a book called Eat To Live by Dr. Joel Fuhrman, M.D. Keep in mind that when i bought this book, i had no idea that this book was a 'vegan' book plan. If i had, i probably never would have picked it up. Oh, it's not that i don't like veggies, it's just that i tend to eat like it seems most Americans eat: high carbs, lots of fats, lots of breads, lots of sugar and lots of junk. Going from that to eating like a vegan is like, well, wiring my mouth shut. I thought it would be impossible for me to eat the vegan way. In fact, in my more lucid moments, i'm still not sure. But i do know this, i'm scared. I know that i'm not healthy. I know that i'm borderline (if not already) diabetic. I know my blood pressure isn't anywhere near the healthy range. I feel like staying in bed most days, not moving and only getting up to potty or eat. Thank God for my daughter and husband, otherwise, i'm sure that i would be that person. I want to be a good wife. I want to be a good mother. I want to be a healthy wife and mother. And i want a life where i am fully engaged and not sitting on the side lines. Am i insane for even thinking about trying Dr. Fuhrman's way? Maybe so, but something has to give Something HAS to change. I'm almost done with the book....just a few more chapters left. The thing is, this way of eating looks do-able. And i think that it will save my life.